Death thoughts

In today’s morning that keyword suggested itself to me. Early before dawn a dream preceded the waking up to a growl in the intestines and fear. The fear in the intestines arose out of a dream-script which was flawlessly executed as though somebody had designed it. How can a dream have a well-executed plot-line with a beginning, a middle and end with a leading-upto ? Was there in the folds of our mind a script writer who could carefully wrap up a story where everything took place according a monstrous execution predecided by thought?  Are not dreams supposed to be surreal?

 Well that was how the dream was as I re-enacted it after waking up. The horror was not of a surreal event unfolding but belonged to a real world with real world build-up of action as the dream proceeded.

 Forget about it. Prior to the morning walk I thought about a certain Buffalo Bill who the poet says was defunct , a certain Buffalo Bill who used to ride a silver stallion and break pigeons onetwothreefourfive.  At  Mr.Death he turned blue in the eyes. Hello, Mr. Death ,how do you like your blue-eyed boy? Asked the poet.

 The keyword “death thoughts” suggested itself in the morning walk. Was that something to do with the dream? Not that the dream was about death or even contained any reference to it.  The word “defunct” came from nowhere. Just a coincidence, may be.

 A peculiar usage by e.e.cumings, the word defunct denotes a thing not being in use or operation. When you die you become defunct. When my mother died she did not cease to exist but merely became defunct. Like the old gramophone which played fine music at one time is now defunct. The gramophone is no longer in use or operation but does it cease to exist? No. It is still in the attic and we do not know when it will cease to exist. But it is no longer functioning as a gramophone but is merely sitting in the attic without performing the functions it is supposed to perform. So the thing has become defunct. Is there an intermediate stage between existence and non-existence when the object does not cease to exist but is merely defunct?

 But in the case of the gramophone, can it not come out of its defunctness if the circumstances when it was in use are once again re-created i.e. people go back in time and play gramophones as though disc players have become obsolete and we are once again using gramophones for some reason? That is a possibility that can be imagined. An object does not become defunct by itself but  by the idea behind it.

Extending the analogy, when people die do they become defunct merely, not non-existent as in the case of the old gramophone. Of course death of people is destruction which is irreversible, an event which makes it impossible to bring back people as they existed. But if death is mere defunctness i.e. loss of function, what is dead is merely the phenomena of people as physical beings but their lives continue to exist as ideas . Just like old gramophones which may not be in use any longer but nobody can kill the idea of a gramophone, once it has taken birth and existed in time. Yes. Gramophones may no longer be in use and consequently may not be existing except as ideas. Similarly , the moment people are born they exist in time and they may become defunct in course of time but will always exist as ideas.

 

 

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